I am a vet nurse

I have an obligation to compassion to not only animals but the owners.
I have a fucking hard time being compassionate to owners sometimes especially when they bring their animal in 24 hours after they ran over it with a car and laughed when it was euthanised.

I am having a hard time in general, people, obligations, commitments, non negotiables and my brain.
I am feeling too much. I am currently doing volunteer work, I am financially struggling big time and I don’t know what to do. I want to jut show how good I am as a nurse but people dont seem to notice my worth which makes me feel I am worth nothing. Perhaps I am worth nothing and my work is actually not at the standard I thought it was.

I just feel. I feel too much.